Missing Erwin & Sharazad

Gue jarang punya best friends. Antara yang jarang dan sedikit, gue punya 2 best friends yang gue sayang banget dan sampai detik ini masih dekat di hati gue. But,unfortunately both of them have been gone. Sharazad,the bestest girlfriend of mine,died at the age of 17 years old. When both of us in the middle of SPM examination.

She's the best girlfriend that i had. Gayanya cuek,santai,tapi smart dan punya leadership yang baik. Izad,that;s how i used to call her was the one who taught me how to be friend with others in school since i was very quiet and introvert during school time.She's also taught me how to play ' Tabla',salah satu alat musik tradisional Arab.

Persahabatan kami sedang akrab akrabnya saat Izad harus pergi meninggalkan gue buat selamanya di suatu siang sepulang sekolah,saat kami baru selesai menjalani try out paper for SPM ( Sijil Peperiksaan Malaysia ).

I was shocked like a hell! No tears at all saking shockednya gue kehilangan sahabat tercinta. Siapa sangka,airmata itu selalu turun saat ini setiap kali aku mengenangnya.Walau hanya sekelibat kenangan mampir,airmataku pasti bergenang. Izad sahabat terbaik buatku. Dia banyak mengajarkan hal hal baik dan mengajarkan arti persahabatan.

Bertahun tahun kemudian, gue menemukan seorang lagi yang belakangan menjadi sahabat yang sangat aku sayangi. Erwin namanya. Kami teman satu kost. Erwin terkenal anak yang cukup introvert. Tak semua anak di kost bisa akrab dengannya. Erwin punya sikap yang sama denganku ketika aku remaja; introvert dan sensitive,tapi sangat baik hati. Beranjak dewasa,aku malah tumbuh jadi wanita yang sangat periang dan ramah. Sikapku itulah yang membuatku berhasil 'menembus' seorang Erwin yg terlihat sangat pendiam di kost.

Kami berteman baik,dan semakin dekat. We shared so many things and learn to tolerate many things. Erwin bisa dengan sangat sabar menemaniku menonton konser Kahitna,band favoritku walau dia nggak  suka sama Kahitna.Erwin bela belain  mengusahakan nama kami ada di guest list untuk kami berdua menonton mini konser tersebut di sebuah kafe. Surprise yang sungguh membuatku terheran heran dan sangat mengesankan. Gue juga belajar untuk nggak mengusik ngusik hal yang buat Erwin 'nggak banget'! Though we were very closed but we stay apart about certain things such as love live. Gue nggak pernah tau siapa pacar Erwin saat itu,tapi Erwin selalu tau gue lagi naksir siapa.Hahaha. YEs, we respect each other very much.He' was like a guardian angel to me since i was all alone in this country.

Sampai suatu ketika Erwin jatuh sakit.Sakit yang amat parah sehingga dia harus beristirahat cukup lama. I was very upset and sad to see him in the hospital. Sampai pacar yang baru aja gue pacari seminggu gue paksa menemani gue ke rumah sakit demi menjenguk Erwin di rumah sakit.

Erwin akhirnya sembuh dan kembali ke kantor.I was very excited to see him in the office sampai gue peluk peluk dia saking bahagianya ( gue amat sangat expressive ya :) .At the same time,gue yang rada sableng ini about to get married with one bloody hell man ! Dengan girang gue memberitahu Erwin soal rencana pernikahan ini. I remembered him saying this ( which later always makes me cried everytime i recall what he wrote ) ; ' i couldn't believe that my litle angel is getting married. I'm happy for you' ( oh,God i started to cry once i wrote this ). I was so happy. Unfortunately, this bloody hell husband to be wasn't happy. He was jealous like stupid donkey and mad to Erwin like a mad man. Due to my 'husband to be' bad tempered ( they were fighting at the back of me and i got hit by this husband to be ),i stay away from my guardian angle. Demi Tuhan hati gue nangis banget karena nggak bisa dan nggak boleh lagi berkomunikasi sama Erwin.

Gue tau betapa marahnya Erwin sama gue dan betapa kecewanya dia sama gue tapi gue nggak bisa berbuat banyak. Erwin nggak akan pernah bisa ngerti alasan gue ngejauhin dia.

Time goes by.I got divorced.But,never got chance to get my friendship with Erwin's back.
Both Erwin and Sharazad thought me a lot about live and friendship. wtih them,i shared tears and laughter. Now they're gone but they remain deep in my heart. 

                                  I LOVE U ALL. I MISSED U ALL